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I am so fucking pissed off with CVS right now. Last Thursday, I received an e-mail from their automated HR system saying that I started today. That Friday, I quit my job. Today, I find out that I won't actually begin working for a month because I need to go through a bunch of training (naturally, I won't be on the clock for this). This was alluded to in the interview, but in such vague terms that I figured when I got the e-mail that I'd be doing online training and on-the-clock training concurrently. I'm going to try to see if (a) they can take me on as a sales associate in the meantime or (b) if my old job will take me back for the month. Fortunately, even if neither of these things happen, things will still be okay.
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I got a call back from a job I applied to yesterday, wanting me to start Monday. Today was my last day of work. EEEEEEEEEE!!!1111eleventyone1111!!11!!

Fuck yeah!

Jun. 24th, 2013 02:02 pm
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I just got the official results from the pharmacy technician certification test, and I am now officially certified! Woohoo!
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I spent the last hour and a half role-playing a scenario in a D&D campaign that my girlfriend has been trying to run for the past several years. I have a doctor's appointment in less than four hours. Believe it or not, I'm not being totally irresponsible since I was asleep until 8pm yesterday trying to sleep off a migraine(I had the day off anyway), so I've been up for less than 12 hours. In any case, this kind of makes me want to play in a tabletop RPG. I should clearly try to revive the F!S RP group that kind of imploded from lack of GMs. Hell, I may even be finding the wherewithal to GM myself.

I've GMed before. I just haven't in a while due to mental health issues, and I've gotten really rusty; like to the point of no longer being able to write games. Also, anxiety over GMing/being in a position of authority/responsibility more generally. Still, running something online and making liberal use of pre-published adventures might make things possible. Maybe once I'm done with this pharmacy technician course...
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Hello to all the people who are following this after the F!S friend-meme. Welcome, and I hope I can be at least mildly entertaining.
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Ever look at your facebook and realize that there's almost nobody you know anymore or wish to continue knowing? Yeah...

Vent

Mar. 20th, 2013 01:43 am
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God, I fucking hate gamerbro culture. I want to kill its zombie daughter and stab it in the eye.
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So, around midnight, I went to take my meds only to discover I had run out. "No problem," I think, "the pharmacy I use is open all night, and my doctor called the prescription in last week." Now, I've had some bad pharmacy adventures, particularly of the kind where my meds for a month cost what I make in a week without insurance. Fortunately, that was not the kind of adventure I had: nothing so dire.

I got to the pharmacy to encounter an agitated woman at the counter alternating between wheedling and throwing a tantrum over the pharmacist not giving her her prescription because she's not due for almost a week, and the earliest that the pharmacist can legally give it to her is in 2 days. She continues, becoming more and more agitated, and it soon becomes apparent that (a) the circumstances here are shady and (b) the scrip she's attempting to get filled is probably CIV (Schedule 4) or higher.

(A brief explanation: Schedule refers to how tightly regulated a drug is, based on potential for abuse. For instance, heroin is CI, which means it has severe potential for abuse and has no meaningful therapeutic use. By contrast, a lot of psychotropic medications like benzodiazepines are CIV, which is to say that there is some potential for abuse, but on the "college students selling their ADD meds" scale rather than the "break into houses, rob liquor stores, etc for a fix" scale.)

Finally, after much wailing and gnashing of teeth, the pharmacist gets her to leave, at least until the morning, when she will--most likely--go through the same song and dance with whatever pharmacist is on shift. I suppose that's what I get for going to a pharmacy at midnight.
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A lot has been going on this week. I started working a new shift (11:30 to 8 at night). My computer died (I've been borrowing Jackie's for basic things like e-mail and bitching on LJ). I started taking a class in preparation for certification as a pharmacy technician. As a result of the second, I have to stop participating in an online roleplaying game that I was just starting to get interested in and feel included in. I have the option of continuing to read the logs, letting the Storyteller know what my character is doing in the background, and coming back once my class ends, but I'm not sure it's worth the effort. Between all these changes, I feel like I'm barely holding myself together. I'm hoping that I'll adjust to these changes and that things will seem less crappy when I'm not in sleep-debt (I worked 10 hour days last week and there was a Quest game that weekend). On the plus side, I had an interview last Friday for a job that I feel like I have a decent chance of getting and that would exceed my most outlandish expectations (entering the job market during a recession and subsisting on minimum-wage work has a way of lowering one's expectations). I just need to try not to think about it until I hear back, and if I don't get it, there's still the pharmacy tech plan. Things are going to be okay, I'm just having trouble believing it.
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It's been awhile since I last posted, so here goes:

-I managed to get my meds resolved. Thank you, kenjari and cakemage.

-I've been temporarily lain off, which will be a lot less of a drag once unemployment kicks in. I'm having trouble finding ways to fill the time. I have all these vaguely creative things that I'd like to be doing, but I can't work myself up to doing them. I've had trouble working myself up to doing anything, but that's another thing.

-There's a job I applied for shortly before Christmas that I heard back from a few days ago when they sent me an official application to fill out. I assume this means they're interested. Whenever I think about it, I freak out a little, because the job sounds amazing, but that kind of makes me worry I won't be qualified. I found some resources hat have important things to know for the job that I've been studying, except for the last couple days, as my sleep cycle is really off-kilter.

-As just mentioned, My sleep cycle is WAY off-kilter. I've been alternating between sleeping for only a few hours and sleeping for like 12 hours. Some days I get up in the morning, some days I wake up around 5pm. I tried to reboot my circadian rhythm by stayinng up until the next night, but that did surprisingly little to realign things.

-Between depression and not having anywhere to be, I've been having trouble working myself to doing things. Working on my story, working on a game packet for Quest, hell, keeping the apartment and myself clean is proving to be a challenge.

So yeah, that's where things are.
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In response to a thread on [community profile] fandomsecrets, I retook the Myers-Brigg Type Indicator. The last time I took it was in college, and I was an INTJ. My result yesterday were different, but only slightly: I'm still introverted, intuitive, and judging, but I'm dead even on the thinking-feeling axis. So now I'm either an INTJ who in more in touch with his feelings and not good at strategy, planning, or general competence or I'm an INFJ who doesn't really grok people. More likely a mix. Out of curiosity, what do you readers test as if you've taken the MBTI and if so, do you think your assessments were accurate?
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So, insurance issues have been a thing since I get it through my father, who only gets it from his union when they've been having him work for a certain period of time, which means that I currently have no insurance and ran out of meds yesterday. Fuck.
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So, I had a phone interview today for a management trainee position. I was experiencing low-level anxiety all this week over it, so it was not surprising that I was incredibly nervous during the interview. It did not help that there were long spans of empty time where the interviewer was writing down my answers. There was also something about the tone of his voice that made me anxious. Jackie, who was in the room when I got the call, said my answers were good.

I hate that it seems the only jobs I've been able to find that want college grads are management/sales/marketing. I'm not nearly confident or extroverted enough for them. I'm not comfortable with having authority, I'm guaranteed to get hosed if I worked for commission, and while I might be good at marketing, I doubt I fit the marketing "type". The irritating thing is that I had been getting better at interviews and not being nervous. So much for that. At least this was a phone interview, so I don't have to have been the best, I just need to have been good enough to call back. Blergh.

Exercise

Jan. 10th, 2012 03:25 pm
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So, I've recently decided that I should start exercising more. For one thing, I need something to kill time (depression and unemployment are a bad mix. Hopefully, the latter will change soon), and for a second thing, I've found that I've lost a lot of the stamina that I used to have (I never had much, but a short hike shouldn't wind me). However, I have no idea how to form an exercise routine. Hilariously, I found a website off of fandom_secrets on lj, Nerd Fitness. It does a really job of laying out basic routines that one can do at home. Admittedly, the warm-up I did was enough to knock me down, but that's a goal. One of the things I really like about the site is that it frames exercise in terms of an RPG, and tries to create a similar system of small goals that have you thinking to yourself "Just a little further..."

I'm writing this post because hopefully, it will be an extra bit of motivation to stick with this.
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Earlier today, livejournal made several changes to their website, including the elimination of subject headings and previews of posts (something to do with an egotistical Russian programmer who seems to enjoy deliberately ignoring feedback and going along with plans that alienate people). Also today, Dreamwidth's maintenance feed noted that there was a bottleneck in journal importing due to high traffic. Coincidence?
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I had a phone interview this morning for a part-time lab tech position at a chemical engineering firm. It went surprisingly well. It helped that the person I spoke to told me I had a very strong resume. Who knew that my student job at the library would come in handy (book repair technician = steady hands)? Hopefully, I'll get called back for an in-person interview, which will have the advantage of not forcing me to go without visual social cues. On the other hand, I won't have my notes to go off of. I just need to remember that this is a job that I can do, and remain hopeful.

Fiat Lux

Nov. 2nd, 2011 10:22 pm
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So, we've been without power since Saturday. Aside from some initial whargarbl once we realized it wasn't coming on for a while, we've been managing. Subsisting on tuna(electric stove) and trekking to the library the next town over for internet (and I'm doing NaNo for the first time, so that's been hilarious), but managing.

So, Jackie and I were driving home from the library, down a street that leads onto our street, when lo and behold, functioning traffic lights! I squee a bit, but Jackie reminds me not to get my hopes up, but we're both pleased that lights are back in our neighborhood. We continue driving, and the street lights aren't going anywhere. We drive up to our apartment, and we see lights from the windows. We drive by our apartment, and see that the lights are back on, and we squee and yell like children in the car. Oh electricity and warm food, how I missed thee!

First Entry

Oct. 4th, 2011 09:34 pm
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Hello,

I'm Mechanosapience, and I'm here mostly in pursuit of fandom. This is basically my fandom/internet/weird crap that I don't share with people IRL identity.
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Extremely Personal )

Advice

Jan. 5th, 2011 10:58 pm
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So, I'm in the unenviable position of having to find a new therapist, since the one I was seeing is associated with Wes, and while I'm on medical leave, I can't see him. The last time I did this, I wound up seeing someone I didn't mesh well with at all; he was cold, distant, and wanted me to engage him for long-term "crack yer skull open and start probing" psychoanalysis without opening up in the slightest. Does anyone have advice for this sort of thing?
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