Mechanosapience

I got a call back from a job I applied to yesterday, wanting me to start Monday. Today was my last day of work. EEEEEEEEEE!!!1111eleventyone1111!!11!!

I spent the last hour and a half role-playing a scenario in a D&D campaign that my girlfriend has been trying to run for the past several years. I have a doctor's appointment in less than four hours. Believe it or not, I'm not being totally irresponsible since I was asleep until 8pm yesterday trying to sleep off a migraine(I had the day off anyway), so I've been up for less than 12 hours. In any case, this kind of makes me want to play in a tabletop RPG. I should clearly try to revive the F!S RP group that kind of imploded from lack of GMs. Hell, I may even be finding the wherewithal to GM myself.

I've GMed before. I just haven't in a while due to mental health issues, and I've gotten really rusty; like to the point of no longer being able to write games. Also, anxiety over GMing/being in a position of authority/responsibility more generally. Still, running something online and making liberal use of pre-published adventures might make things possible. Maybe once I'm done with this pharmacy technician course...

Ever look at your facebook and realize that there's almost nobody you know anymore or wish to continue knowing? Yeah...

So, around midnight, I went to take my meds only to discover I had run out. "No problem," I think, "the pharmacy I use is open all night, and my doctor called the prescription in last week." Now, I've had some bad pharmacy adventures, particularly of the kind where my meds for a month cost what I make in a week without insurance. Fortunately, that was not the kind of adventure I had: nothing so dire.

I got to the pharmacy to encounter an agitated woman at the counter alternating between wheedling and throwing a tantrum over the pharmacist not giving her her prescription because she's not due for almost a week, and the earliest that the pharmacist can legally give it to her is in 2 days. She continues, becoming more and more agitated, and it soon becomes apparent that (a) the circumstances here are shady and (b) the scrip she's attempting to get filled is probably CIV (Schedule 4) or higher.

(A brief explanation: Schedule refers to how tightly regulated a drug is, based on potential for abuse. For instance, heroin is CI, which means it has severe potential for abuse and has no meaningful therapeutic use. By contrast, a lot of psychotropic medications like benzodiazepines are CIV, which is to say that there is some potential for abuse, but on the "college students selling their ADD meds" scale rather than the "break into houses, rob liquor stores, etc for a fix" scale.)

Finally, after much wailing and gnashing of teeth, the pharmacist gets her to leave, at least until the morning, when she will--most likely--go through the same song and dance with whatever pharmacist is on shift. I suppose that's what I get for going to a pharmacy at midnight.

It's been awhile since I last posted, so here goes:

-I managed to get my meds resolved. Thank you, kenjari and cakemage.

-I've been temporarily lain off, which will be a lot less of a drag once unemployment kicks in. I'm having trouble finding ways to fill the time. I have all these vaguely creative things that I'd like to be doing, but I can't work myself up to doing them. I've had trouble working myself up to doing anything, but that's another thing.

-There's a job I applied for shortly before Christmas that I heard back from a few days ago when they sent me an official application to fill out. I assume this means they're interested. Whenever I think about it, I freak out a little, because the job sounds amazing, but that kind of makes me worry I won't be qualified. I found some resources hat have important things to know for the job that I've been studying, except for the last couple days, as my sleep cycle is really off-kilter.

-As just mentioned, My sleep cycle is WAY off-kilter. I've been alternating between sleeping for only a few hours and sleeping for like 12 hours. Some days I get up in the morning, some days I wake up around 5pm. I tried to reboot my circadian rhythm by stayinng up until the next night, but that did surprisingly little to realign things.

-Between depression and not having anywhere to be, I've been having trouble working myself to doing things. Working on my story, working on a game packet for Quest, hell, keeping the apartment and myself clean is proving to be a challenge.

So yeah, that's where things are.

So, insurance issues have been a thing since I get it through my father, who only gets it from his union when they've been having him work for a certain period of time, which means that I currently have no insurance and ran out of meds yesterday. Fuck.

So, I've recently decided that I should start exercising more. For one thing, I need something to kill time (depression and unemployment are a bad mix. Hopefully, the latter will change soon), and for a second thing, I've found that I've lost a lot of the stamina that I used to have (I never had much, but a short hike shouldn't wind me). However, I have no idea how to form an exercise routine. Hilariously, I found a website off of fandom_secrets on lj, Nerd Fitness. It does a really job of laying out basic routines that one can do at home. Admittedly, the warm-up I did was enough to knock me down, but that's a goal. One of the things I really like about the site is that it frames exercise in terms of an RPG, and tries to create a similar system of small goals that have you thinking to yourself "Just a little further..."

I'm writing this post because hopefully, it will be an extra bit of motivation to stick with this.

I had a phone interview this morning for a part-time lab tech position at a chemical engineering firm. It went surprisingly well. It helped that the person I spoke to told me I had a very strong resume. Who knew that my student job at the library would come in handy (book repair technician = steady hands)? Hopefully, I'll get called back for an in-person interview, which will have the advantage of not forcing me to go without visual social cues. On the other hand, I won't have my notes to go off of. I just need to remember that this is a job that I can do, and remain hopeful.

Hello,

I'm Mechanosapience, and I'm here mostly in pursuit of fandom. This is basically my fandom/internet/weird crap that I don't share with people IRL identity.

So, I'm in the unenviable position of having to find a new therapist, since the one I was seeing is associated with Wes, and while I'm on medical leave, I can't see him. The last time I did this, I wound up seeing someone I didn't mesh well with at all; he was cold, distant, and wanted me to engage him for long-term "crack yer skull open and start probing" psychoanalysis without opening up in the slightest. Does anyone have advice for this sort of thing?