Damned if you do...

[mechanosapience]

My life has taken a Clerksian turn. I've finally gotten over my obsession with someone who my readers don't need me to mention by name. However, a side effect of this newfound metanoia(look it up!) was realizing that I still cared deeply for the girl I sorta cheated on when I re-met she who will not be named in this entry. I told her how I felt and I turned out to have pretty bad timing, since she'd been developing a fancy for a mutual friend. The Clerksian part is that I had my epiphany too late for it to have any consequence, just like Dante. Now for the dilemma: since I told her about my still liking her, we've talked and she thinks the guy she likes has a thing for someone and she said that she doesn't want to date him if she's the consolation prize. Thing is, out of masochistic curiosity, I asked the guy if he liked her. He said no, he liked the girl who the girl I like suspects he has a thing for. So, if you weren't totally confused by my lack of names, here is the quandary: do I tell her? If I do, she'll know that he doesn't like her and will therefore date me. On the other hand, if I do, she might think I'm just saying it to get her. She also might just get pissed at me for telling her and ruining her hope. I wish I could get an epiphany that didn't make my life more complicated, but if wishes were horses, we'd all be eating steak.