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Sorry I haven't been writing in a while, but I've been busy, so here's a recap. I switched to Honors Biology at Stamford High, where I take a couple of classes(originally 1 but now 2)and I met this girl I really like, possibly love, named Theresa. Theresa is a goth, though she doesn't really like labels and she's a witch. She's 16, her birthday is March 25th, and she loves the Doors and musicals. Anyhoo, she knows I like her cuz I told her but I don't know if she knows how much and she's busy obsesing over this guy Damien who I can tell from what she's said about him that he doesn't have any interest in her which I think will result in one of two things. Either he will be honest and tell her he doesn't like her(good for me cuz I know she likes me , but not as much as Damien, which kinda saddens me, but that's besides the point)or he will take advantage of her to get some east boinking(which will make me suicidal and probably leave Theresa hurt in the end which I really don't want). I wanna do something, ask her out, kiss her, anything to show her that I'm worthy of immediate attention as a boyfriend or something similar, but I'm really scared(god I have the same problem as her). I'm feeling really crappy and unloved because I said something at lunch which weirded out her and her friends and she hasn't talked to me since except for a reply to my IM saying "can't talk". This situation is even further complicated because of Amanda, who will probably read this, who I still like depite the fact he doesn't like me in a romantic sense and is a lesbian. Sigh, what's a lonely, romantically love-starved, horny boy to do???