mechanosapience

Despite the fact that I'm much closer to my mom than my dad, I have much more contact with his side of the family, as crazy and extroverted as they are. In particular, I'm much closer to my paternal grandparents than my maternal, mainly because my mother's father died when I was very young and my mother's mother is distant, both emotionally and geographically.

My paternal grandmother, possibly the one member of my extended family that I give a good damn about, died last night. She had cancer for the past two years, so it isn't like this is a surprise. Hell, I've known she's been on her last legs for almost a year. I spoke with her a few weeks ago, and I could tell it would be soon. I've had ample time to prepare, so why the FUCK am I barely able to function?!