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mechanosapience) wrote2011-01-05 06:16 pm
mechanosapience) wrote2011-01-05 06:16 pm
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Because we all need another "My shitty life in 2010" posts
School
My last semester of senior year was... difficult. I began to burn out on school. Even though I liked most of the classes I was in, doing the work became increasingly difficult (in part because most of the assignments were essays, which I tend to have difficulty with), and I was counting down to graduation so that I could breath. Then, right before finals, I started working on my research for graduate work in the ecology lab I worked in. In part because I'm not terribly comfortable with my adviser and in part because of the aforementioned burnout, I was miserable. Things continued to get worse when the school year started. My income as a grad student was much less than I was led to believe it would be, my housing situation was unstable for the first two weeks of September, and classes combined with grad work was more than I could manage. As of late November, I am on medical leave, with tentative plans to return for Fall 2011.
Work/Career
At this point, I doubt that I'll end up in research. I will probably return to the Master's program at Wes next fall, but I don't know. I've been rather unsure as to what to do, as I had invested a lot of my identity into the idea of following a career in research. I've sort of gotten a handle on that, thanks to a book loaned to me by![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
jila. So now I think I want to go into forensics, but have little idea of how to do so. I intend to find out, most likely by inquiring at the CRC at Wes. Of more immediate concern is my newfound state of unemployment. There was an issue at the place I was working as a cashier, and they've terminated my employment, in accordance corporate policy. I was already looking elsewhere, and had some chance of getting a job elsewhere, but this puts a great deal more pressure on me. That, and I suck ass at selling myself/writing resumes. Fortunately, wingnutsftw has been kind enough to lend his powers of resume-fu to that endeavor. Now I'm just hoping to hear something, but I'm wondering how long to wait.
Quest
I've seen a trend of people getting sick and tired of putting time and effort into an organization that alienates them, and I fear (a) having to fill in for people and (b) that I may winding up becoming a part of this trend. I hate being heavily involved in running games. While I may not be the best GM, it's incredibly frustrating to put time, money, and effort into running a game that proceeds to explode in your face, or to have it not explode in your face, but still receive little other than negative feedback and precious little acknowledgment or appreciation for one's efforts. While I have an idea or two for a game, I'm extremely hesitant to try running them unless I can get help from someone in GMing or event just an Events liason (something I've had rather poor luck with in the past, but that the-powers-that-be are talking about focusing on in greater depth).
ADP
At this point, I see very little reason to have anything to do with ADP. I haven't felt welcome there in some time, and most of the people I have any interest in interacting with are alums who I see elsewhere. However, considering I know someone who is interested in joining, I think I should simply tell her that I have a very biased opinion and am therefore not in a position to give advice.
On the plus side, my relationship with my family is improving and I spent Christmas at my dad's. It was fun, though things got a touch strained after a day or two of being snowed in by the Blizzard of 2010(TM).
Oh, and I have the flu. Go me.
School
My last semester of senior year was... difficult. I began to burn out on school. Even though I liked most of the classes I was in, doing the work became increasingly difficult (in part because most of the assignments were essays, which I tend to have difficulty with), and I was counting down to graduation so that I could breath. Then, right before finals, I started working on my research for graduate work in the ecology lab I worked in. In part because I'm not terribly comfortable with my adviser and in part because of the aforementioned burnout, I was miserable. Things continued to get worse when the school year started. My income as a grad student was much less than I was led to believe it would be, my housing situation was unstable for the first two weeks of September, and classes combined with grad work was more than I could manage. As of late November, I am on medical leave, with tentative plans to return for Fall 2011.
Work/Career
At this point, I doubt that I'll end up in research. I will probably return to the Master's program at Wes next fall, but I don't know. I've been rather unsure as to what to do, as I had invested a lot of my identity into the idea of following a career in research. I've sort of gotten a handle on that, thanks to a book loaned to me by
jila. So now I think I want to go into forensics, but have little idea of how to do so. I intend to find out, most likely by inquiring at the CRC at Wes. Of more immediate concern is my newfound state of unemployment. There was an issue at the place I was working as a cashier, and they've terminated my employment, in accordance corporate policy. I was already looking elsewhere, and had some chance of getting a job elsewhere, but this puts a great deal more pressure on me. That, and I suck ass at selling myself/writing resumes. Fortunately, wingnutsftw has been kind enough to lend his powers of resume-fu to that endeavor. Now I'm just hoping to hear something, but I'm wondering how long to wait.Quest
I've seen a trend of people getting sick and tired of putting time and effort into an organization that alienates them, and I fear (a) having to fill in for people and (b) that I may winding up becoming a part of this trend. I hate being heavily involved in running games. While I may not be the best GM, it's incredibly frustrating to put time, money, and effort into running a game that proceeds to explode in your face, or to have it not explode in your face, but still receive little other than negative feedback and precious little acknowledgment or appreciation for one's efforts. While I have an idea or two for a game, I'm extremely hesitant to try running them unless I can get help from someone in GMing or event just an Events liason (something I've had rather poor luck with in the past, but that the-powers-that-be are talking about focusing on in greater depth).
ADP
At this point, I see very little reason to have anything to do with ADP. I haven't felt welcome there in some time, and most of the people I have any interest in interacting with are alums who I see elsewhere. However, considering I know someone who is interested in joining, I think I should simply tell her that I have a very biased opinion and am therefore not in a position to give advice.
On the plus side, my relationship with my family is improving and I spent Christmas at my dad's. It was fun, though things got a touch strained after a day or two of being snowed in by the Blizzard of 2010(TM).
Oh, and I have the flu. Go me.
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