Hospitalization

[mechanosapience]

I think I keep a lot to myself, at least in person. So it may come as a bit of a shock to hear that I'm writing this in a notebook in an ER because I want to die. I've been treated for depression and anxiety since a time when measuring my age with two digits was a novelty. This is not the first time I have been hospitalized for this, though the last time was over 10 years ago. I have not tried to kill myself, but I'm worried. Obviously, since I'm seeking in-patient treatment. It's funny, this all feels almost liberating. I've been really struggling for the past year, and for a variety of reasons, in-patient psychiatric treatment didn't feel like an option (if I didn't have tigerdreams with me, I might have convinced myself that it still wasn't an option). I when update when I can, but suffice to say, I will probably be here for at least a few days. I just hope this helps.

Comments

[calledtovienna.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

[kenjari.livejournal.com]

*hugs* Also, <a href='http://www.boston.com/bostonglobe/ideas/articles/2010/02/07/stay/">this essay</a> says it much better than I can. I know a couple of people for whom in-patient treatment has been really helpful. Are you at the Institute for Living (if you don't want to say where you are, that's okay)? more *hugs*